When we open up to receive the expansive, greater fields of Light we also open the darkest and longest hidden corners of our psyches. This may be the first time light has reached into our dank recesses. Now is the time to exercise awareness of the BLACK RAY.
“After the abandonment to Light comes the opposite: the energies of BLACK are making a comeback. Black is not evil; it is simply the besieged ego wanting to express itself. It is the frantic, frightened ego – the shadow – withering in the face of the energies of the Time-Space Portal.”
When you immerse yourself in the Great Light, the boomerang effect comes into play; what is hidden in your shadow will make its self known as the light shines upon it. So what do you do? How do you cope when the deeply hidden, longest festering wounds, scars and stories come into the light? Do you revert to defending them? Do you re-assert the ego and get out your battle axes, sometimes even in the name of spirit? Or do you hang in there watching as the divine washes clean your pus-engorged past, and places a fresh dressing upon it? How easy is it to allow yourself to be healed of the burdens of the past? How vulnerable do you allow yourself to be? Will you allow your ego to be broken?
All of us, without exception carry the ancient wound. And what is the ancient wound? It is separation from Source. The Black Ray is to help you go into the painful past with a sharp witnessing alertness, so you are not seduced back into your normal defensive patterns. We all have routines which stop us from moving on: regular lines of defense to keep our ego established. The Black Ray helps you to infiltrate your own fortress of ego. It allows the healing balm to tenderly soothe the angry sores.
One of the dangers of the egoic shadow is to claim it is being driven by spirit.
“ ‘I am following what the spirits tell me’, or ‘I am following the hand of God’. Sometimes people say they are being ‘guided by Spirit’, but it is not true. It is simply that Spirit is not standing in the way.
This week we are invited to “Beware the cunning of the mind. If you go off in a mad direction – a direction you think is okay –don’t say it is us who are guiding you. Take responsibility, whether you are right or wrong or neutral. […] The ego is like a machine, an engine, with its own agenda. It can catch us in its agenda. It can throw the responsibility onto us.
Of course many times you are being “led” by Spirit. But you can always tell. Something feels right about it; a lightness and softness exude from this path. If the path feels magical harmonious, then of course the hand of Spirit is with you. But why say we are leading you? You are leading yourself. You are grown up enough to tap the eternal wisdom which is the Ocean – the Ocean of the Immortal Ones.”
We have free will and the spirits cannot stop us from enacting our old sagas we have carried from lifetimes. They may attempt to help us see it, but we must be the ones to shine our awareness upon ourselves. The universe is infinitely compassionate, it will bring drama to us, so we can witness and free ourselves from the past nightmares. But we have to crystallize our own awareness. No one can do that for us. We each have to transform ourselves. No one can do our enlightenment for us. The Black Ray is to help you go steadily into the dark night, so you can get off the wheel and dive into the infinite.
Hold steady this week as you take the plunge into your own depths. May you find your buried treasures and transform them into pure gold awareness.
With great love,
Thank you to Dheeren Gibbard for quotes from the Rainbow Revelation: www.laughingrainbow.org
To get your own chart and begin to work with your Colours, you can join the upcoming internet/home study course the Colour Athenaeum. www.vision-voyages.com
Resources to work with the shadow: “Dark Side of the Light Chasers,” by Debbie Ford